Birthdays, Christmas, New Years - all occassions when it seems time flies by so quickly. I do admit now that I am contemplating covering up the greys in my hair, I am feeling a sense of life accelerating. Every New Year's Eve I sit down with a great bottle of wine - a vintage, not every day wine, and write out the balance sheet and income statement for the year. This isn't a financial one - it's one where I take stock of what I have, what's keeping me from being where I really want to be, accomplishments and failures. In accounting terms I am determining net worth and changes in position.
It is the Eve of a new decade. It is far too easy to lose sight of the big picture when taking a yearly measurement. So for fun here is a quick analysis of the last decade.
2000 - 18 months into a new marriage, 2 months in a new home, just met Bruce and Marlene, my first three curlies were "inutero" babies. Within the next 20 months I would meet Trish & Darrick and Chuck & Adria, become very unhappy with my job, quit that job, sell my new home, move to Virginia for 4 years, have a seat front row and center for 9-11, leave Virginia and start all over again. Pets were Boomer, Kyla and Bobby, the 5 month old puppy. Sadly the theme of the year, and the next 9 years to follow would be overall unhappiness.
End of 2009 - been back in Canada for 4.5 years, still not happy with the job but it's fixable, in a home I enjoy, a barn full of Curlies who are my pride and joy, Boomer and Kyla have left us and Bobby the puppy is now over 10 years old, Pip, Tucker and Dory have joined the family, circle of friends has increased dramatically. In a nutshell it seems like not much but the 10 years certainly didn't happen in the blink of an eye.
So the 2009 re-cap - what makes this year different from so many others is how many people I've allowed into my life. Since becoming involved with the world of Curlies I have gained several very wonderful friends. I adore each of them but they are "far away" friends. Now that I am feeling better about things some new, local friends have wandered into my life. For the first time ever I don't feel like I am walking on thin ice around them. They accept me for who I am, and I accept them back. We are far from hip pocket friends but we make a point of getting together 2 to 3 times per month and have a great time each time. We are varied bunch - different ages, different interests, backgrounds, tastes but with the common goal of just experiencing the world for what it is. They are without a doubt the greatest change in my life for the year and the main reason why my overall assessment of the year is an unprecedented "bloody fantastic."
On the agenda for this year? Year number 2 of my new lifestyle. I will admit that although I demonstrated remarkable retraint the first 3 weeks of December, I dabbled in holiday treats resulting in a 3 pound weight gain - my first monthly gain this year. I am sure significantly reduced exercise played a roll; I am not the gym type and the ice on the sidewalks have kept me at home. Seeing this gain coming earlier in the month, I signed up for twice weekly Aquafit and once weekly skating lessons starting next week. I bought a new pair of ice skates on Boxing Day; my first pair in nearly 20 years!! I am pleased as punch with them!
I took a necessary break from the horses for the better part of the year. I had a long chat with Trish when she visited earlier this month and even she commented that sometimes we just need a break and not to beat myself up over it. The horses don't care so long as their every day needs are being met. My sebbatical lasted 8 months - it ended earlier this week when I attended a Parelli playdate with a group in Eastern Ontario. Though Parelli isn't my scene anymore I thoroughly enjoyed a day out with the horses and visiting with Donna and Karalee. I have spent the week mapping out goals for each horse on the property and am gung ho to get started. While I signed up for RAC 2010 I did not sign up for the ground portion. I found last year I used it as an excuse not to get on. This year there are no excuses - I am lighter and fitter, my young horses are old enough. As a friend in Virginia once commented - I just need to "get on the damned horse." So off I go!!